There are times when I become overwhelmed by what is going on around me with either my family, friends, church, work, kids, kids schools and schoolwork, and the list goes on. It is like I can't seem to figure out which way to go ... hence the theme of this blog!
I find myself asking God to just whisper to me the answers... please?
Recently I needed to make a career decision and I was completely overwhelmed between some parental issues and career decisions and could not think straight. My parents, or better known as my advisory board, were out of the country and I was literally on my floor crying, "GOD, I JUST NEED MY DADDY!" Half of it was to him to be my Daddy and half of it was seriously requesting for my Dad to call. I gathered myself and went to get the kids from school and 30 mins later as we were pulling onto my street, my phone rang. I picked it up and smiled... "Thank you God for hearing my tearful pleading..." it was my Daddy. He felt like he needed to call. WOW!!! Now that is a whisper to my soul.
Earlier in the same day, I was driving and was surprised to hear the beginning of a song that I love and could not believe I hadn't heard the beginning words before.
Ok so why did this speak to me? Because as crazy as it may sound, I feel like I have been called to give up our cable. Why is this so hard for me? Baseball. Yes, seriously, BASEBALL. I love my baseball and I want my FoxSW channels. I love my Rangers. So how does this apply? Well, God is whispering to my soul... will you be willing to sacrifice it all, for me? I know this is silly, but this is what I can't let go of. He is whispering to my soul... when did MY love become so unconsuming that Baseball is more important than me? And yes, I am still struggling with it and have not given it up yet. I know I need to... I just can't do it yet... play-offs are so close... I hate myself for it.
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